If You Don't Like Me, I'll Make You Hate Me

12:30am: Thurday Night Smackdown
Great lunch at work.
Carne Asada, Casserole, enchiladas, macaroni salad, and cute bite size red velvet cupcakes.
Ended with an unforgettable song.

Softball Game:KCC Liabilities vs. Explosive D
Final Score:8-2
RBI:1

10:54pm: This month is ADHD Awareness Month!
GO ADHD!

12:29am: Celibacy Day #6
Its been a while since my last post. So what better way to start it back up then by telling the whole world about my celibacy vow.

I vow to not have any sexual intercourse or any oral pleasure from another person until I find a boyfriend. Yes, a boyfriend. Not even someone I'm dating or "kinda seeing". The next time I get freaky with some guy is going to be my boyfreind. That means NO MORE FUCK BUDDIES and NO MORE ONE NIGHT STANDS.

Before I made the vow, I could say that sex, including acts that worked up to it, took over at least half of my spare time. In honor of my vow, I will be replacing sex with activities such as softball, kite flying, bikram yoga, hangin' with the homies, and the occasional masturbation. I will also be putting my safe sex kit and all my sex toys, except my bullet, away because my birth control is abstinence now.

In the last couple of years, I have proudly taken the title of "Biggest Ho I Know". Hopefully by the end of this year,however, I can pass the title on to Michael. I will no longer be a permiscuous girl, or even easy like sunday morning. I want to make love, not accidental babies. So move aside Floozita the Enchilada Princesa, there's a new girl in town. I'm Tara, the Celibate Hot Mess.

6:22pm: Right!?

8:51am: Thank you!

4:35pm: Ms. independent day!
Manicure and Pedicure: $32
Hello Kitty Fanny Pac: $12
Hello Kitty Tote Bag: $10
Hello Kitty Wallet: $18
Hello Kitty Stamp: $.85
3 Pairs of Hello Kitty Underwear: $25
Club Sandwich at Mimi's Cafe: $12
Buying this shit with my own money: a priceless ms. independent day!

3:20pm: Endless love what!?
My love,
Theres only you in my life
The only thing thats bright

My first love,
Youre every breath that I take
Youre every step I make

And i
(i-i-i-i-i)
I want to share
All my love with you
No one else will do...

And your eyes
Your eyes, your eyes
They tell me how much you care
Ooh yes, you will always be
My endless love

Two hearts,
Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun

Forever
(ohhhhhh)
Ill hold you close in my arms
I cant resist your charms

And love
Oh, love
Ill be a fool
For you,
Im sure
You know I dont mind
Oh, you know I dont mind

cause you,
You mean the world to me
Oh
I know
I know
Ive found in you
My endless love

Oooh-woow
Bam, bam
Bam, bam, bam, bam, bam
Bam, bam, bam, bam, bam

Oooh, and love
Oh, love
Ill be that fool
For you,
Im sure
You know I dont mind
Oh you know-
I dont mind

And, yes
Youll be the only one
cause no one can deny
This love I have inside
And Ill give it all to you
My love

3:53pm: Totally employed!
I work for my auntie right now
$8/hour
Today i was learning more about some software called Calyx Point. I was reading the training guide. I was halfway done with the third chapter when I fell asleep. Woke up an hour later making $8 for sleeping. Loves it!

9:41pm: life sucks right now.
someone hook me up with a straight wigga who will treat me right!

12:22am: i wait.
i wait impatiently.

12:04am: bleh
I dont want to be me anymore. why couldn't i just be addicted to drugs. at least then i would be fiending for a substance instead of a body.

11:28pm: I'm so mad
Don't you hate it when people don't get it.
I mean seriously!
It makes me sad that you don't know.

4:42pm: Silly Ho!
I watched a documentary last night.
It was called "Atlantic City Hookers: It Ain't EZ Being A Ho"
and I don't want to be ho...

4:37pm: So i watched the Last Kiss the other week. It was about a guy who cheats on his pregnant girlfriend and gets caught. After his one night stand with the other girl, he realizes that he only wants to be with his girlfriend and that he made a huge mistake.
So that raises the question.
Does a person have to cheat on you in order to realize that you're the one for them?
And if so, do they also have to get caught early in the process?
Is that why they realize that they've made a huge mistake.
becuase they get caught and not just caught cheating... but they get caught cheating the first or second time they do it?

My former english teacher seemed to have a great life.
She seemed to have a great husband. The truth is that he was cheating on her for three years with a woman from his work.
he eventually fell in love with his mistress and now he is getting a divorce with my teacher.


So what do you think?

9:26pm: I want a dog!
I just finished watching Eight Below.
I want a dog!
Some kind of Husky.

6:55am: I stole this from Oliver... Thanks Oliver!
1) Whats your middle name
reyes

2) Were you popular in high school?
not really

3) Did you ever get in a fight in school?
me and jocelyn were wrestling once and got suspended that day
it was fun!

4)Have you ever had a wet dream about someone on your top #'s friends list?
I dont think so

5) Have you ever masturbated?
duh!

6) Do the curtains match the carpet?
no.. i bald down there at the moment.

7) How many XXX rated movies do you have?
none but i do have something a downloaded from limewire... its funny.

8) How many times a day do you think you think of sex?
all the time! :(

9) Are you gay?
no

10) Are you straight?
ok

11) Are you bisexual?
i dont think so

12) Have you ever been to the ocean?
yes!

13) Ever made love on the beach?
no but i almost fucked on the beach.

14) Where is the craziest place you have made love?
ummm i dont know... its not really that crazy but i guess it would have to be a pool table.

15) Do you love someone?
i love my family and friends but thats it.

16) Do you think that you are attractive?
i think im kinda sorta cute. like if you look at me with one eye closed with your head turned 45 degrees clockwise. yeah

17) Do you think that you are good in bed?
no complaints yet!

18) Have you met anyone off myspace?
yes

19) Have you slept with anyone that you met on myspace?
not yet

8:01am: totally me!
I used to know this girl
Who gave her love away
To every guy she met
With all those games they played
She never seemed to cry
She never got upset
And one by one they came
And one by one they left
I thought that I could fix her
If she would let me in
But all of my advances
Were shut down in the end
When days turned into months
I begged her to explain
And this is what she sang

It's not like I'm a slut
Or that I really like to fuck
I just want every boy I see
To walk away with part of me
Until there's nothing left to hold
Until there's nothing left to hate
I appreciate your help
But even you can't save me from myself

I used to know this boy
Who took notes in a book
But he ripped out all the pages
Before I got a look
At all the words he scribbled
At all the lines he filled
But the ink stains on his fingers
Told me he was skilled
At capturing a feeling
That most of us just miss
The simple pain of living
With goodbyes on our lips
I found one of the pages
Crumpled by her bed
And this is how it read

It's not like I am weak
Or that I don't know how to leave
It's just that every time you cheat
You bring me closer to defeat

Until there's nothing left to love
Until there's nothing left to say
I know that you need help
But even I can't save you from yourself

9:31am: I'm so excited!!!
The Faint and Ladytron
Hollywood Paladium
yeah i know right!?

Strangers with Candy is a funny movie.

guys with funny laughs= BOING!!!

10:16am: SBF'n it!
ate sushi with jay, ol, and ken.
many fine miens!
amoeba music isnt fun when you have no money.
capris are bitch cigarettes... perfect for me.
vons supermarket don't sell lisa frank... whats up with that!?
got no action tonight... but i still had fun.

9:36am: Word of the Day
Vaginer= Person who has vagina

11:03pm: last night
flava flave.
del taco.
5 minute argument about what to get at del taco.
barbara walters.
hubba hubba.
boing!
sexy miens!
high times.
yay!

3:36am: LG VX9800
I got my new phone y'all!!!

3:28am: Quote of the Day
"No my parents weren't rockstars. They were drug addicts just for the fuck of it."
-Tegan Quin